my dear girls keep 'nagging' at me for not blogging... and they're really sweet lah... they'll faithfully visit my blog even though i hardly update. hehe.

this past week has been a strangely emotional one. for those of you who grew up with me, you'll know that i'm someone who's really hard on myself. growing up, i could never lose, i couldn't be bad at anything, i couldn't fail at anything... i must be good at everything, i must be 'perfect', and everyone must like me. i must always win.

this 'me' as i was growing up, made me sad over the smallest things, and i was really obsessed with doing everything till i thought it was 'perfect'. this 'me' made me a 'happy' have-it-all person on the outside, but a really fragile soul on the inside.

growing up, i often blamed God for creating me the way He did. i would always ask God why He didn't make me more quiet, more thoughtful, more systematic, more punctual, less loud, less competitive and less last-minute.

this past week, God re-visited some of these issues which i hid deep inside me. circumstances this week made me feel like i was not enough, like i was not nice enough, not thoughtful enough, not well-liked enough... it was a really bad week for me lah.

just as i thought things were going to be grey and moody for a while, God reminded me of a verse in 2 Cor 12:9, "But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."

so yah... praying that i will live day to day, knowing that His grace is more than enough for me (: i love you dear Lord, please help me along the way (:

p.s. thanks dear, drey and ren (: